Three years ago I had the love of my life… and I believe I screwed it up.
I don’t remember how we met at all and our end is equally as murky. You see we never technically dated. In reality we both dated other people, but in the back of my head she was undoubtedly the ying to my yang. It was our little secret that I kept even hidden from myself. She got me and it was perfect. Until she told our secret aloud. DAMN! I got freaked and ran. Not literally, though I probably would have literally given the chance, but I distanced myself as much as continentally possible. It wasn’t until she was gone and virtually engaged that I realized what had happened. In retrospect, it all worked out for the best… for her. So I am happy… for her.
I think the core problem in this situations was me. I didn’t know how to be a girlfriend. I need to work on that so if God blesses me with another woman I can know how to act.
Sooooo enough of that introspective sh*t, I am starting to online date. Not that these women will be my trial and error… test dummies of sorts but … well no no that is definitely not what they will be.
looks around
I hope she doesn’t read this… but if she does… Hey boo.
looks around with a forced smile
First up… Plenty of Fish. Why? Because it’s free.
Hello 40s (formerly the Kword) 
Haahahahaha *shakes head* I think most of us lesbians know this all too well. It’s also great of you to realize what the issue is” not knowing how to be a girl friend” I totally get that. Sometimes it’s too complicated I must admit. There is so much of yourself you have to bring that even the thought of it seems immeasurable. Good luck on your hunt.
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I think for me I had to get some things straight in the house of K before I stared moving people in. I am at a better place in the last month or so… Not to move anyone in, but at least put up open house signs. *Yes I think I did that analogy to death*
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Hahahahaha *knock knock* may I come in? lol
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Bwhahahaha!
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Oooops sorry for trespassing, continue with your healing process. Lol loo
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You are hilarious. I love anyone that can embrace an analogy like myself
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Hahaha
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Raw and real. Good Luck K!
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Thanks! We shall see we shall see.
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I’ve been considering online dating as well! Keep us posted 🙂
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I have to commend you boo for even taking that leap. I’ve tried it as well, and eh, Catfish much? Other than that risk, I also commend you on being honest enough to realize you aren’t exactly ready for anything serious and that’s okay! I will be looking out for an update! 🙂
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Thanks! Yes, it was definitely a sobering realization to know that I was the one reason for my failed relationships…. but I had to do the math.
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In my POF profile I mention that I know the importance of doing constant “me” and that I hope you do too. Seems like you do K, good for you for rearranging the furniture and getting that house in order! Truly our relationships are a reflection of different aspects of ourselves so continue to work on the person you are as single K and boo’d up K will be a great girlfriend!
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Woot Woot. 🙂 We will see how it goes. Right now I am just riding the waves, but eventually K might might even make a great wife (Speaking in 3rd person is not something K does often, she promises)
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This kind of hurt my feelings to read… welp.
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